The Start, The Middle, and It Will Continue All The Way

As I promised, here's the re-written version of how it all started and how it will carry on =) Here it goes...

I opened up my eyes, and the sun was shining brightly in my eyes, the curtains to the room was slightly opened, allowing a small beam of sunlight to shine straight to my eyes. I got off the bed and stared back at it, wondering... Then, a smell entered my nose, it was the smell of food. Everyone knows I can't resist the smell of food, so I followed it downstairs and found not only food but a beautiful girl standing in the kitchen preparing breakfast. I immediately went up to her and gave her a hug from the back, I caught a glimpse of the smile on her face. Then, I turned her around and gave a her kiss on the lips. I helped her with the rest of the food then we sat down and had breakfast together. Something just popped up in my head and I asked her "remember how we met??" with a smile on my face. She looked into my eyes and replied "how can I forget,"

It was many years back when we were in high school, I actually knew her existence since primary, but never got a chance to get to know her due to some rivalry between our classes. But as soon as we entered high school, I officially met her during moral studies. It was our only class together which lasted for 3 periods only... On the 1st day of moral studies, I actually went up and sat next to her, it was kinda awkward back then. Then, I sat next to another person. It was kinda a stupid thing to do... At least I got to know her name. Throughout Form 1 & Form 2 I wasn't really close to her but I soon found out that she had a boyfriend... Yea... that kinda didn't work out well for me...

Then came Form 3, my brother was part of the LEO Club Committee and she was helping out with the preparations of an event called 'Red Infusion'. I followed my brother who went early for the preparations too, and honestly it was by coincidence that I met her there. So I decided to help her out. After all the decoration was done, we were packing up the things when she realized that she lost her phone. At that point, she grabbed me by the hand and we went searching for her phone. Despite the situation, I actually had a smile on my face, it was really something. In the end, her phone was actually with one of her friends.

We slowly got closer to each other after that event. And after a while, she broke up with her boyfriend. I didn't know what happened between them but what I heard was that he picked studies over her, which I found really really stupid. As time went by, we got close but never really spent much time together outside school. We usually only see each other at events outside school. But it didn't really matter much in Form 3 because there was this thing called PMR in the way...

Then, came a long Form 4 year as friends, I performed for the Seniors batch's prom with a group of friends and we called ourselves 'The Berry Craze', cool name huh? Anyway, then I began thinking about my prom. Who would be my date? 

Few months passed and there was this concert organised by the school, so I was part of 2

performances which were an acapella group, 'Knights of Ajastan' and 'The Berry Craze'. We

had rehearsals during classes so I got to spend some time with her. Then came the actual

concert day... the concert was nerve-wrecking. During the acapella performance, I had a small

solo part and when it was time for that very part, I heard her voice, screaming my name,

cheering me on. A look a happiness fell upon my face and it stayed there for the rest of the day...

In July, the prom date topic was the most talked-about topics... I panicked as others had

ideas all plan out for asking their prom date... Then when the pressure was on, I decided to ask

my prom date too, of course it would be her. But the only different thing I did was to plan and

execute everything without letting people know at all... I guess it worked because I think that

some people still don't know what I did. I was so nervous as the plan was to asked at a

stairway nearby our classes, but then there was a talk in the hall where every student was

suppose to attend. Lucky for me, I had a friend to help me guide her to the stairs alone so I

could pop the big question. There I was waiting 1 floor below as she reached then I came up

holding a rose and I asked her... She paused for about 2 seconds, smiled and said 'YES'. Then,

the feeling was like being a cloud high up in the sky just floating around because I was just too

happy.

So then our last year in high school went by... Before I knew it, prom had arrived. I met her at Sheraton Hotel lobby and she was absolutely stunning, I couldn't keep my eyes off such a beautiful soul. She was right there in front of me. We spent the whole night together, our 1st slow dance together... Then, after the pumped up songs began, I brought her out to the fountain of the hotel, we sat by the fountain, gazing up at the stars. Then I look at her as she was still looking up, pulled out a rose from the pocket of my jacket and asked her, 'would you be my girlfriend?' I was afraid that she would reject me but then, she looked at the rose, then turned to me, smiled and nodded her head, I held her hand and we went on together as a couple. Although we shared many moments after that, there was no doubt that that moment we shared was one of the best moments in my life.

THE END

Unfortunately, this is just a rewritten version of an essay I wrote about you, I wished that everything in these few paragraphs were true, well some of them are, but some of them aren't. All I need you to know is that I LOVE YOU!!!

What Happen So Far =D

I'll start from old news then slowly come to the present day of what has happened between the time of my last post until now =)

It starts with SPM coming in the way of everything, where all the revision books come in handy and all the 'misbehaving' turning out to be not so handy. Eventhough, many people say that SPM is the deciding moment of a person's future, it plays a part but it kinda isn't a life deciding exam. But we still should study and be prepared for it.

Surprisingly, SPM came and went quite quickly. Subjects just went by, there were some upsetting moments but it was 'bearable'. After that, everything just slowed down. Days went by as if they were weeks, SPM felt like a long long time ago. Then, the holidays came or as most of us would like to call it, 'FREEDOM!!!!!!' =D There was tons of time to spend after SPM, sometimes too much time until we did not know what to do. But something would come to thought somehow every time.

GENTING

This is my 1st time going to Genting, there were 2 types of reactions when I told people so:

- Really?? You'll love it =D

- WHAT??!!! NO WAY!!!! I DON'T BELIEVE YOU

Anyway, I was kinda fun except for some 'WHAT THE CRRRAAAAAAPPPPP!!!!!' & 'SHIIIIIT!!!!' moments. And there was a, how should I put this? 'boohoo' moment... I'm not proud of that at all... Never happening again... The rides were scary, especially the space shot. I can't believe I went through that. Glad thats over =P. But the best part about Genting was that I got to go with the bestest friends I would ever have. I was crazy & scary, yet absolutely fun.

PROM

This event was absolute wonderful. Preparations had to be made but it was all worth it. I had my 1st ever slow dance with my date =) It was a lil awkward, but I think it turned out fine. And of course she was absolutely beautiful. She wore the necklace I gave her which really made me happy =D I really wish I could thank her for everything but the words 'thank you' just isn't enough to me. If you're reading this, thank you for such a spectacular night and I wish that night would never end. =D

TODAY

Last night was prom, after prom was Kayu Nasi Kandar, then cc, then basketball at 5, then sleep at 6am. After that, I set 4 alarms on my phone which were at 8 30, 8 35, 8 40 and 8 45. But the weird thing is that I woke up at 9 15 to the sound of my sms tone, which is literally a second long. Then, I went to Sunway Pyramid with a bunch of friends, we went ice skating. It was my 1st time ice skating, so someone had to teach me. The best part is I had the best teacher of all. She kept me steady throughout the 2-3 hours of skating, I was happy because after a while I didn't feel afraid because she was there by my side. I am very grateful and appreciate all the help I got. The rest of the day was amazing, I literally had a smile on my face the whole time she was there by me. I guess it was a never ending flow of happiness as long as she was there.

THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING AND

I REALLY HOPE WE WOULD DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT AGAIN =D

No Joke

I'm now 17, I realised that I have never said 'I love you' to someone, never got a proper hug from a girl (awkward ones don't count), never gone out on a date, never got a girlfriend, and honestly I do want one... Having a girlfriend to me is like knowing someone is there, anytime and anywhere. Having someone you care about right next to you, it's a feeling I really want to gain. There's always this curiousity in me that kept me thinking on how a relationship would be like, I guess it's because I've never experienced one... I know I should really concerntrate on studies now, but I don't wanna end up living the enjoyable teenage life alone.

Having a great time with friends is a good thing already but I wanna know how it feels like enjoying a moment with 1 person only, I'm sure that it'll be a whole different feeling. I also realised that achieving this won't be easy, I kinda suck in socialising with someone without making it awkward, I have no idea on how to work on that. But I hope it'll work out...

My life has gotten a lot more better, of course it's because of a few people that I've known for quite a while now. =D But I wonder how would it be like leaving all this for further studies... I know that we'll still meet up but how often?? It'll be a new life all over again... But without a doubt, I wish that it'll be like the life I'm having now...

NO WAY ON EARTH!!!!

I really meant what I said from the last post but this time things got freaking f***ed up!!!!!

The morning was great, we went the King's Scout installation and stuff. Speeches were boring as usual but it was quite fun hanging out with the Petalings again. The whole ceremony ended around 1 then we had a buffet lunch which was ok.

After that we went home... This is when the shits start. I opened by bag at the dining table and found my dad's magazine wet... Guess what?? My King's Scout cert was in the bag too... I removed everything, the bottle cap was open and I took out a file containing the cert, it was partially wet and the ink was smugged... FML!!!!! I tried to take out the cert and the freaking corner of the cert had to tear making my life a lot more miserable... Wait, it doesn't end there. The tried drying the cert with the fan. Then my dad came. You know how things are already freaking bad and your parents just have to scold you making it worst. Yup, that happened... He was like 'NEXT TIME TAKE CARE OF YOUR STUFF!!!!!' How does that freaking make things better??!!!! There won't be a next King's Scout for me. There won't be a freaking same cert!!!! HOW ON EARTH DO I TAKE CARE OF IT NEXT TIME????!!!!!!!

I really don't know what the hell I did to deserve all this bad luck. How much of bad luck?? Hold on, it's been about 17 FREAKING YEARS OF BAD LUCK!!!! I can't even try to do something and not screw it up. I can't even try to help but end up making things worst!!!! And I certainly can't even succeed at ANYTHING and EVERYTHING with this freaking horrible luck!!!!

I hate it when someone's life is so great but they just say FML when one small thing happens to them. You dare to say fml to that when you haven't even gone through the shit I have... I'm sorry if I offended anyone in anyway but I just don't understand anything anymore...

Things Should Change

This is gonna be the last post which I'll post on fb cause I kinda feel that I'm seeking attention through this blog, eventhough I that's not my intentions. So yea, I'm gonna change a few things now. I'm hoping that these changes would allow me to understand things more.

I've been kinda lost in whats going on nowadays. Is there a way to find out something without asking that certain person?? Cause if I'm wrong, I don't want things to get all awkward and stuff, especially around a group of people. So how do I changed in those terms?? I still have no idea.

What else am I gonna change in?? Hmm...
Most probably the way I think, talk and my actions.

I'm not gonna think about depressing stuff cause whats done is done, just leave it behind and move on.
I'm not gonna swear, eventhough I think I don't do much of that but I'm try to not swear at all.
I'm not gonna do stupid things like what I usually do. Always be nice in any way and every way to anyone and everyone.

Yea... that's it

Nom Nom Nom!!!! =D

Yea, so my whole family is out doing dunno what, so I made brunch for me myself and I =)

I couldn't find any bread and I'm suppose to finish the ham soon, so I kinda used the ham as my bread.

Yea, so I took ham and spread grated parmesan cheese on it, then put it in the oven to melt the cheese. Meanwhile, I cut half a tomato into slices, why not diced?? Lazy la =P

I had 2 different slices of ham so yea...

Then, I used some tuna and bbq sauce, and put it over the ham.

It looks kinda disgustingROLL IT UP!!!

Put it back in the ovenIt doesn't look like the oven did anything but I think it heated up the bbq sauce and tuna =)

Yea, after about 10 minutes the plate became empty... BOY I'M FULL!!!

THE END!!!! =D

=D

It's a public holiday, so I thought why not another post =)

Yea, so there hasn't been much happening in life actually. And yea, I decided to ask someone to be my prom date. How did I ask?? Who did I ask?? Err... I guess I'll keep it unknown =) Oh ya, there's something I want to say, I hope you're reading this, I just wanna say THANK YOU =D After all the stupid things I've done, I actually achieve something this time. When you accepted my request, I was enlightened. Honestly, I was never this happy. People keep saying I used to be the 'FML person', the emo person but now I've changed and always had a smile on my face. I don't know whether that is true though.

And to all those who know about this, please stop teasing her. I mean she's always been nice to everyone, but why can't you give her the same treatment?? It's something I can never understand. Why is it that someone can treat others nicely but not get the same reply??

Changing to another topic, this month so far is like a vacuum cleaner sucking in all the money from my wallet =( Birthday presents nowadays aren't cheap. But as long as it's for the closest people, why not?? =D I really was amazed by how this 1 person put all her heart into making cards, organizing a surprise (but she was horrible in lying =P), and getting every single thing going according to plan. She really showed what a good friend should be like.

I kinda like this cover for this song. But the bass in the second chorus screwed it up, but here it is =D